Twenty-Four Hours A Day We Fight the battle with what are we going to eat. Twenty-Four Hours A Day We Fight the spiritual battle of overcoming our desires... the flesh... Its the same war with different tools. Spiritually we use the word of God, the Spirit of God, Fellowship and the things we have been taught by our spiritual leaders.
The battle with food requires the same tools with a few adjustments that specifically target the mind and the body that drives us to eat...
One of the tools that has helped me the most is the Twenty-Four Hours a Day meditation book. I find it helps me each day get a mind set to fight. To be prepared for the tricks of the mind and the potential road blocks we may face.
My most common road blocks are 1) My Feelings Got Hurt ( a co worker, a friend, anyone who says anything that I don't agree with or they don't agree with me or they say something out of pocket can set me off. I will sulk and then turn to a cookie for comfort. However I am learning instead to reach out and read something that will give me strength like the word of God or something else that deals with my issues like the Twenty-Four Hours a Day Book.
Let me give you an example: Today's Thought for the Day is:
If we get up in a meeting and tell something about ourselves in order to help the other person, we feel a whole lot better. It's the old law of the more you give the more yo get. Witnessing and confession are part of keeping sober [free from sin or eating addictive]. You never know when you may help somebody. Helping others is one of the best ways to stay sober [free from strongholds like eating addictive] yourself. And the satisfaction you get out of helping a fellow human being is one of the finest experiences you can have. Am I helping others?
Today, I had to face the hard fact that I broke my abstinence when I went to New Mexico and until today I was binging... Today I scraped myself up and got back up because I know that if I keep going on the road I am on I will put the weight back on and my life will fall apart.
Why did I do it? Just my will. I had a desire to eat a certain food at Papadeaux's and I did it. I can see how the thought came in my mind, the emotions were formed that remembered how good I felt doing this act of eating and I was powerless to stop it once I got it concieved in my mind. The will ...the desires must be controlled ...that is the fight I face each day.
So what about you? Are you honestly fighting? Or like me do you let your will and your mind have the reigns?
Step Three in AA is Turning Your Will Over To God... Thats Where I am... and my Prayer is Lord help me to turn my will over and give a complete surender. Give me the grace, power and deisres to do what I know is right to do each day in every area of my life.
Its the only way things will get better and I can have the happiness God desires for me.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Weight Problems ARE Spiritual Problems... Read This.
Being FAT is ugly... sure you can lie to yourself and others and accept the puddgy midsection like it does not bother you. That's what I did for over 20 years. I knew I was beautiful...despite my weight and demanded others to believe it was ok for me to be obese. However those that really loved and cared for my soul kept pushing me to lose weight even though it made me furious...
In the end I realized that my weight problem was a spiritual problem and I was eating to comfort a wound in my soul. I experienced childhood trauma and ate to comfort myself. When I got married and that did not solve my problems I ate even more. After my divorce I spent most of the time day dreaming about some Prince Charming who would love me and make my problems disappear. Playing Barbie Dolls and wathcing the Notebook did not help form a healthy image for a relationship for me. LOL
However the lifeskills 411 Positive Relationship event did. I realize now what is healthy and what is not. I am learning to create positive relationships and not be so demanding and needy. Righteousness was not an attribute that rules my actions but the needs of a 16 year old girl with a wounded heart did.
God has helped heal me and I hope sharing what I went through will help other young ladies who are overly focusing on a relationship and are unhappy unless they have a boyfriend.
Maybe this reading will help:
Taken from Meditation for the Day from Twenty-Four Hours A Day...by Hazelden.org
'The kingdom of heaven is within you. God sees, as no one can see, what is within you. He sees you growing more and more like Himself. That is your reason for existence, to grow more and more like God, to develop more and more the spirit of God within you.'
I pray to grow more like God and to be guided by His Spirit. I pray my walls will be down and I can love with out reservation righteously eliminating past fears, resentments and insecurities that try to rob me of Gods joy, happiness and peace. I pray that I will find joy in life regardless of the male/female relationships I may have or not have because all things work for the good to those who Love the Lord. I love him and I know he loves me and will work out exactly what I need and when I need it. I can trust God for everything including love, friendship and relationships.
Patience...
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
What is Food Addiction and Why Can't Some People Lose Weight?
Food Addiction is a disease of the mind, body and spririt for which there is no cure but the disease can be arrested one day at a time by the actions of weighing and measuring your food and following a simple 12 step program.
Food Addiction is similar to any other addiction... Food can be used as a drug to comfort you or change your emotions... Eating can calm your nerves, give you pleasure or help you tune out disturbing emotions.
How do I know about this? I am a Food Addict in Recovery. I attend meetings that support my recovery and I know that using food as a drug or as a coping tool is not healthy for me. Eating is to fuel my body not a recreational sport. LOL
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